High School, the Future and Beyond. A 16 yr old's life. Plain and simple.

I sometimes wish that I could get a guy back… ya know?? Like even though i know he is COMPLETELY wrong for me there is still that want, that desire to feel as liked as I did back in that moment. But then you get to the meat and the bones, and you analyze the relationship and realize it wasn’t healthy. That makes it even more hard because following your head is pretty damn stupid. I think that your heart is more trustworthy or just screws you over.

KNow what sucks?

Falling in love. Like true love, where you still think about the person every day, every night. I miss that feeling of being with unsaid person… But you know, it’s not going to happen. So screw it, unless you buy me tulips… tulips fix everything. Hint hint.

High school shows primal instincts.

Now you might ask how, and that’s a pretty reasonable question considering usually high school is viewed as bitchy girls and testosterone filled boys. But if you think about it, it’s truly a game of survival… like how to survive midterms, how to survive lunch alone, how to survive girls being jerks. But you see that’s the problem, we all try to SURVIVE. But what about going beyond that, we can be mediocre and survive, or we can actually learn from our mistakes and from our ways and grow to be something more. I really think mediocre is as close to giving up as you can get.